Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Time out

My mother’s cancer has returned. It’s still too early in the process to know what the final prognosis will be, but my heart is once again in my throat.

I don’t fear for her ultimate destination; I know that when she dies she will go home to be with the Lord. But I fear for her suffering at the end. And I fear missing her so much that it will be like a piece of me has died.

I know that my generation has reached the age when our parents pass on. I know that death is part of life. I know that God is good and that He has a plan – for Mom, for me, for the next generation. But knowing all of that doesn’t seem to help right now. Tonight I’m just a sad and scared little girl who wants her mom to be well. Even when you’re a 50 year-old adult, even when you've reached the point where you find you give more advice to your parents than you get from them, even when your own kids are adults – even then, you still need your Mom.

Prayers much appreciated……


Katie said...

I'm sorry, Cath... I'll definitely be praying for your mom, and for you too!

Nostalgic for the Pleistocene said...

Same here! I know these feelings very well, and hope with all my heart that this turns out to be something that can be taken care of and eliminated -- but in any and all cases, prayers goin' up.

The Tysor's said...

My proyers are with you all, Cath. Let us know if there is anything we can do. We love you
Mandee & Scott